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Post by Delilah Jade Cross on Aug 26, 2012 18:22:57 GMT -5
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It wasn't the material that was draped around her petite frame that drew her attention back to him quickly, it was the smell. She could smell him as he approached her, the moving material wafting his scent towards her. Looking up, her shoulders shrugged upwards to hold his jacket. "You don't have to..."It was quite a rapid response time considering how sluggish her brain seemed to be. "I'll be okay... If I get moving..... You know...... Walking and....."Sighing she just shut up. She wasn't making sense to herself so she doubted she was to him. She just missed him so much. She missed him every single day. She couldn't have known what would have happened if she'd stayed, she didn't know he left his wife for her or that he still wanted her, she just remembered that look he had when he found out the truth about her. She always knew it would come out, and she always knew she should have told him, but that didn't mean she did.
Maybe she was just trying to keep him, prolong what they had for as long as she could because, ultimately, she knew that it wouldn't last forever. There were time's when she'd lay with him, when he'd fallen asleep for a brief period before he hand to go home, and she'd watch him. To this day, Delilah knew every inch of his face by heart. By the heart he'd captured completely, the way no one even came close to until the day his child left her body. She'd not been happy whilst she was pregnant, it was hard when you knew that the baby was never going to be yours, when you knew you'd never see that child grow and when you were completely and utterly alone. The second she held her son, she knew he was the most perfect thing she'd ever seen, and somehow she'd made him. She hated herself for marring him with the fact his creation had been a part of something deemed wrong. She hated that everything perfect in her life was ruining the lives of others. She just prayed with every second she watched her son, and every tear that accidentally dripped onto his tiny body, every delicate kiss placed upon him, she prayed that he would never have to suffer for what she'd done.
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Post by stuartpenbrook on Aug 26, 2012 18:24:53 GMT -5
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Stuart smiled a little – he couldn’t help himself. Maybe he was slightly amused that she was coming up with excuses not to wear his jacket at the same time as moving her shoulders into it… or maybe it just reminded him another time they had walked and she had complained of the cold. In fact, now he thought about it, Stuart wasn’t sure if he ever got that particular hoodie back. Part him spent a fanciful moment imagining that she had kept the sweatshirt with her, but then the greater part of his rationality kicked in and he dismissed the idea all together. There was after all, no point in making himself depressed with fanciful notions that had little place in reality. Instead, he let out a breath and ran a hand through his hair, before shoving both deep into the pockets of his jeans.
This was not how he had envisioned his night ending. In fact, he had predicted too much to drink, a greasy kebab, and a night spent face down on the sofa until noah woke him up the next morning because he was laid on the remote and it was time for Sunday morning cartoons.
”Don’t fight me on the jacket. It’s cold out here and you’re barely wearing anything.” he said, simply.
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Post by Delilah Jade Cross on Aug 26, 2012 18:25:20 GMT -5
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As he told her not to fight him on the jacket, Delilah gulped and nodded her head, pulling it around her gently. She hadn't forgotten about the hoodie she stole either. She did have every intention of giving it back, but she just couldn't. This one however, she was almost sure, would end up back in Stuart's possession by the end of the night. As she walked, she let out a gentle sigh. She wondered what Rollo would say if he saw her like this. She didn't have any friends to wonder about and her and the shifter had found common ground around the same time he started using her house as a place to stay. She couldn't really complain, the guy saved her from a maniac but he knew her as the strong, put together person she still pretended she was. She couldn't even imagine that seeing Stu again would rumble her like this.
She had to mentally tell herself to put one step in front of the other, her eyes watching her feet like she was making sure they stayed in line. Finally after a good few minutes of psyching herself up, she spoke. "I'm sorry about... in there... I shouldn't have got myself in that kind of state... I don't know what came over me...." That was a lie, she knew exactly what came over her, she just didn't feel like she could say it.
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Post by stuartpenbrook on Aug 26, 2012 18:25:37 GMT -5
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The silence was uncomfortable, for his brain used it to run through everything he wanted to say, over and over with increasing speed until he reached the point where it was just an annoying buzzing sound in his head. And the broke the silence… and it didn’t really help. ”don’t worry about it….” he said, half smiling over at her. Every time he looked over at her now he was hit by her beauty… HOW COULD THIS WOMAN STILL DO THIS TO HIM? How could she make his heart skip a beat and his blood run simultaneously hot and cold at the mere sight of her?
Silence resumed… but eventually… eventually, Stuart worked up his own courage. ”I’m sorry Delilah. For the way I acted before… it wasn’t fair. I tried to find you… but… you disappeared….. I never had the chance to apologise.” That was not all he wanted to say. He wanted to tell her that he still loved her. He wanted to tell her that Noah needed a mother and he needed her and she all she had to do was come home with him and let him hold her once more….. but he wasn’t brave enough for that. He wasn’t brave enough for the rejection that could entail.
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Post by Delilah Jade Cross on Aug 26, 2012 18:26:38 GMT -5
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"What?" Without a moment's thought, Delilah stopped, turning to face Stuart. The words ran over her brain a couple of hundred times but not one of those times helped them make sense. She wasn't sure her heart could feel this ache anymore, she thought that after a year or so, it had grown numb to it, yet here it was, forcing her heart into her gut, the sinking feeling enough to nauseate even the strongest stomach. "What do you... You tried fi-- Apologise? For what??" As far as Delilah was concerned, she was the one that needed to apologise, on all accounts. She hated that she'd been so weak so many times, but more than that, she hated that she'd affected his marriage, she hated that she'd lied to him about her age, she hated that she somehow messed up her birth control and got herself pregnant, but she couldn't seem to hate herself for what those things brought the world.
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Post by stuartpenbrook on Aug 26, 2012 18:26:53 GMT -5
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He looked at her, surprised that she had stopped… and surprised that she didn’t seem to know what he was talking about. ” for acting the way I did when I found out how old you were… it was just a shock but… by the time I came to tell you that your age meant nothing to me, you were already gone….” He had thought that that much would have been obvious. ”Where did you go? I couldn’t find you… I didn’t see you again until you handed me Noah. I just… I wish that… never mind. “ he shook his head, and moved to keep walking, despite the fact neither of them seemed to have any idea where exactly there were going.
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Post by Delilah Jade Cross on Aug 26, 2012 18:27:22 GMT -5
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If you could see a person's heart break in a single moment, it was almost certain that was what Stuart would be able to see right now. Delilahs heart slowly crumbled within her, the moisture leaking from her eyes seeming like the destroyed pieces of her trying to escape. She started to slightly shake her head but it was the second part to come out of his mouth that destroyed her the most. She literally gasped in a breath and pulled a hand to her chest. "Noah?" It was almost like the rest was a blur but that name just rang through it all. "That day Stuart... The day you found out about.... Me.... I was finally plucking up the courage to tell you I was pregnant...." It was everything she could do to just hold herself up, the fact she could form words was a mere miracle. "I thought you didn't want me anymore....."
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Post by stuartpenbrook on Aug 26, 2012 18:31:06 GMT -5
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The surprise from before was nothing compared to the disbelief that now graced his rugged, stubbly features. He looked down at her, wide eyed and tried to take in what she had said. She was going to tell him. That much… he could understand why she didn’t maybe, but what he couldn’t understand, was why she had thought he wasn’t interested in her anymore.. that he didn’t want her anymore. ” Delilah… what? i… of course I wanted you… I always wanted you…. I left my wife to be with you…”
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Post by Delilah Jade Cross on Aug 26, 2012 18:31:58 GMT -5
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"You... You left her?" How did she not know so many major details? For the longest time it drove her mad, the idea that he might still be with her, that she might have forgiven the affair and the mere idea that her son could call her Mommy. It was never something she could entertain, it would have destroyed her and there was very little left to destroy. "Stuart the way you looked at me!! It might have been for a moment but you wished you could go back.... I know you did!!" She clenched her arms around herself. She was trembling all over to the point her teeth began to chatter. No matter how much she pulled the coat around her it didn't help, but that was probably because it wasn't the cold effecting her this way. Quickly she pulled her hands to her face, trying desperately to control herself. What the hell happened to the cold hearted, hard faced bitch that everyone else knew?? Maybe it was the fact she loved him long before she was ever that person. "I'm so so sorry!"
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Post by stuartpenbrook on Aug 26, 2012 18:32:29 GMT -5
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Stuart nodded. Of course… she had not known because she had never given him the chance to tell her that he had left his wife for her. That he had had every intention of forging his way into a new life with her and leave his old one behind, where it belonged. But instead of having that chance… he’d been left with nothing. Nothing until the day she had given him Noah…. And he had spent the last five years building his life and everything in it around the blonde haired little boy. Now… here she was. Stood in front of him. Everything he had wanted. Everything he had desired. Everything he had once though he had needed. ” no! no not even for a moment. I thought about what I meant. How it made me! I felt like a paedophile because you weren’t even 18 yet but I love…..ed you Delilah! And as she apologised he stepped towards her… and pulled her into his embrace, the words falling from his mouth quietly. ”I still do.”
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